Indistinguishable or Indescribable

I still think the whole idea of Christianity is ridiculous but I am somehow inexorably drawn to it. Yet I don't want to be another one of those simple seekers--the type of spiritual day trippers who want the occasional adventure but without the long term commitment. I accept that this consciousness of something greater, or perhaps it is just a strong desire, will not leave me but I am loathe to talk about the Divine in broad terms for I believe it is one's own failure to see the Divine that accounts for much of the lack in clarity. Of course one could always use the argument that God defies our explanations and hopefully that is true for any God that could be explained by us is no God at all. Yet, this does not give us licence to discard all sense, both spiritual and practical--the very sense bestowed upon us as part of creation.

While a claim to have direct knowledge of the Divine may be a bit pretentious, I am much more content with mystery than I am with ambiguity. There is an important difference; for whereas ambiguity implies a lack of distinctiveness on the part of the object, mystery denotes a distinct lack of knowledge on the part of the perceiver--indistinguishable versus indescribable. Mysteries can be explored and possibly solved with the right details but ambiguities are by their very nature elusive to human comprehension. Ambiguity allows the seeker to fill in the gaps with a sort of spiritual license while mystery compels the seeker forward in true faith. Ambiguity insults the presence of the Divine whereas mystery glorifies it.