Paths to Purpose

I am feeling nothing. I thought I was going somewhere, moving toward something but like closing my eyes after spinning in circles, the motion I felt was an illusion. I've returned to strategizing about my life, seeking out other paths to purpose. I don't want this to become another pursuit, another well-thought out process that achieves a certain end. If I proceed, I want to do it for the experience itself. I must refrain from formulating the end before I start; it will only lead to disappointment and disillusionment.

Focusing on the present has been interpreted by many as being shallow and narcissistic--only living for the moment. Yet it must be even more narcissistic to prostitute every moment to some particular end that fulfills a loftier purpose. This approach leaves no room for a genuine experience of the now. There is an important difference between doing everything for a purpose and doing everything for one purpose.